Monday, December 30, 2013

Managing my frustration over this person!

Posted by Lil' Sue at 12/30/2013 11:15:00 AM
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Well I wrote about this before. Here you go, the story began when we agreed of not mocking each other be like normal friends with benefits. It works for a while until this scumbag started to brag about his stupid tiffany and co n wedding preparations. By all means, if the money is right for u go n marry your girlfriend asap but how could he be very very heartless and ignorant. He knew very well that I am not seeing anyone n yet he purposely asked " so when u are getting married?" If he asked me for the first time I think I am not mad but asking me for the hundred times sounded sooo irritating, annoying made me wonder what on earth have I done to this creature for me to deserve him to make fool of myself as he pleased? I see none of this making any sense. If he is concern bout me as a friend, he is not supposed to ask me that super DUMB question. Who is he? To even have the right to question me about my life? Honestly I have a lot of killer lines to pissed him off but I just choose not to say it coz I still have a heart even he is acting like...£&^~>**!!! 

Well the best way to handle this is to avoid his existence until I feel better. Otherwise, I still have the urge to slap his face!!! 

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Hold me ...just a little bit more...

Posted by Lil' Sue at 12/12/2013 09:15:00 AM
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Today I feel bit doze off and some kind of fuzzy feelings clouding around me. Everything seems to fall apart and not right. I remind myself that life is not covered with bed of roses.. It is truly not. I am feeling bit shattered...It is not about insecurity or whatsoever..maybe I just need a hug or company. My best friend is married now and I am so happy for her. I know that I cant see her much or as often as we used to hang out before which is understandable... Congrats Mrs. Norashikin Yusop...Love you loads!!! ^^

There is a thing about a friend in my very own office trying to become a shield for me from being ridiculed by my other friends. Like I said before...Being single is ok, seriously. However, sometimes it is just because other people always do the maths for me. Age...bla bla bla... Yes,  I admit it is an ISSUE but that does not mean that I have to settle less than what I deserve for. I still keep my options as open as possible and I believe good things come at right time at right place.

Hang on there Lil' Sue!!

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

5 things to do while you’re single

Posted by Lil' Sue at 11/19/2013 05:55:00 PM
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Being single isn’t a disease, It’s an opportunity for you to grow, learn, and experience life in a way that you won’t be able to when you are married.
Here are 5 things to do while you’re single:
1. Be firm in your faith. 
- Build your faith on a foundation that cannot be shaken, no matter whom you encounter. This will not only bring you peace during your season of singleness, but will also help you in your journey of finding the person you plan on being with for the rest of your life.Don’t let your beliefs change depending on whom you’re trying to impress. This tactic will always come around to hurt you in the long run.
2. Get grounded in your personal identity. 
- Know who you are before trying to explain it to someone else. Be confident in your purpose, your body, your identity, and your life choices. Relationships will not fix your identity problems, but they can be an added bonus to who you are as a person.
3. Focus on school, or starting you career. 
- You have a lot of time on your hands. Instead of spending it wallowing in your singleness, GO MAKE SOMETHING OF YOURSELF! You are worth more than what sitting on a couch waiting for your significant other makes you out to be. Step out into the world and take maturity by the horns. Start building your future instead of simply dreaming about it.
4. Learn to be independent until needed otherwise. 
- There is nothing wrong with aspiring to be a stay at home mom, or even being a man who works from home. But until either of these opportunities come into play, you need to make sure you are doing everything possible to provide for yourself, your future family, and your future aspirations. Don’t live day-to-day. Plan for the future, and look forward to the possibilities. You owe it to yourself to mature in all
5. Stop dating people you know aren’t right for you. 
- While you’re single, stay away from mindless dating experiences. If you know they aren’t your type, don’t give them the time of day. All you are going to do is hurt them and eventually confuse your heart. Stop dating the wrong people and start focusing on becoming the right person.
- Jarrid Wilson

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

7 Steps To Finally Finish Your Writing Project by Jayme Barrett

Posted by Lil' Sue at 11/13/2013 05:11:00 PM
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I never planned on writing a best-selling book. In fact, I never planned on being a writer. As a feng shui expert, my passion is to help people live happier, healthier, more inspired lives. So, in combination with feng shui consulting and teaching, I figured the best way to help a lot of people is to write a book.
Since I’m constantly asked how I came to write Feng Shui Your Life, I want to share tips that may help jump start your own writing journey. Synchronicity and luck played a big part in getting my book deal, but writing it took hard work. Along the whole way, I implemented good feng shui and the manifestation techniques from my book. If it worked for me, it can work for you too!
1. Identify your passion and recognize you are unique.
You must be passionate about your subject so you’ll have the energy and persistence to keep writing. Let’s face it: Writing isn't easy so you must have the driving force within you to complete your book. Once you're passionate, you’ll notice how many other people and authors are also passionate about the same subject. It’s OK. You Are Unique. No one has had the same life experience as you have. You will share the information in your distinct way. Try to re-frame any negative thoughts.
2. Find inspiration and do your research.
Most subjects have been written about already, so it’s important to read inspiring and uninspiring books on your subject. It’s essential for your book to have a unique angle. Find your niche. In 2001, when I began writing my first book, I looked at what had been written on the subject and decided my book was going to be holistic, approach feng shui as a lifestyle, and be a beautiful interior design book as well. There was nothing like it. Like me, you can make a manifestation board for your book project and look at it every day.
3. Create a ritual, schedule and deadlines.
To get yourself in the writing mood, create a ritual (make tea, light a candle, go to a coffeehouse etc) and do that each time you write. You also must make a writing schedule. If you’re a morning person, begin first thing. If you’re working full-time, write at night or on weekends. Deadlines keep you on your schedule. Whether I have a self-imposed deadline or one from my publisher, I’m more apt to get it done on time.
4. Pray, meditate, and walk.
Before I write, I say a specific prayer, ask for guidance, and invoke divine blessings. I silently ask to be a channel or vehicle for this information to come through me easily. You can also find a meditation that works for you. Meditation helps to clear ‘mind clutter’ to invite a positive flow of creative energy. In between writing sessions, I take walks on the beach. Walking in nature is healing and many times, great ideas come when you’re not at your desk. Bring a voice recorder or small notepad.
5. Write in data dump form.
To minimize writer’s block and the need for what you create to “be perfect,” dump the pertinent information on the page. At this point, your rule is that it should be ‘the worst grammar and writing" you’ve ever composed. Seriously, this technique saved me. I just dumped the data in no particular order and once it was out, I could re-formulate and re-order it. I highly recommend reading Steven Pressfield’s The War of Art for effective ways to deal with creative resistance. Also, make sure you have cleared clutterand created good feng shui in your writing space.
6. Create an outline.
When writing a non-fiction book, a detailed outline is essential. Forget about being “creative” at this moment. Think about: (a) what the reader needs to know and (b) in what order he needs to know it to fully comprehend the subject and put it into practice. Write the outline like you did in school. (1, a, i, etc). It looks like a dry text book at this point but don’t worry, it won’t turn out that way.
7. Infuse your personality into writing your book.
Using your outline, now you can infuse your personality into writing each paragraph. When I’m feng shui consulting, I’m friendly, practical, and uplifting, and that “you can do it” energy came through in my writing style. Write in a way that’s easy for your audience to understand. (You must know your demographic!) Remember to give yourself a treat for every personal milestone you reach.
Bonus Tip: At the end of your meditation each day, envision your book on the shelf at your favorite bookstore.
Sending you blessings for a meaningful writing experience and loads of synchronicity along the way!

Friday, November 8, 2013

10 wife lists qualities

Posted by Lil' Sue at 11/08/2013 09:49:00 AM
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by  on November 1, 2013 in Dating

Just like character is the most important characteristic of a good guy, the woman you’re going to marry should have good character as well.  When you find her, she is more valuable than anything.  Here are 10 qualities of good future wife material:
1.  She shares your beliefs
When it comes to finding your wife, I’ve heard “equally yoked.” It has nothing to do with weightlifting.  Your potential wife should have the same beliefs you have.  Now, you may think you can do some missionary dating, and turn that situation around.  More often than not, you’re going to be disappointed with some bad side effects.  If you don’t have the same core beliefs….good luck.
2.  She makes you a better man
If everyday is hell with her, that should be a red flag.  Your potential wife should elevate you to Yourself 2.0.  You can get a good idea from your friends and family.  Do they say you act differently in a bad way when you are around her?  Not a good sign.  She should bring out the best in you, not bring out heartache and frayed nerves.
3.  She’s trustworthy
In fact, she should inspire trustworthiness within you.  If you don’t trust her, you’re probably making her as bitter as you’re making yourself.  Not worth it.  If you can’t trust her, maybe you’re not ready to date her or maybe you need to work on confidence issues within yourself.  If there’s good reason not to trust her, don’t even go there.
4.  She has ambition
She should have strength in character and carry herself with confidence.   As a man, you should be the leader in the relationship, but that doesn’t mean she’s the consummate follower.  She should have plans too.  In fact, she should be a hard worker just like you.  That doesn’t mean having a job is a requirement.  One of my friends is a stay-at-home wife with three kids, and she works harder than any of my friends with careers.
5.  She’s selfless
She should care about others.  Look at the way she treats her family and her friends.  If she’s not close with her family, and doesn’t have any good friends, that’s not a good sign.  If you start dating her, much less marry her, you will discover why.  Some questions to ask your self:  Does she care about causes?  Does she go out and volunteer?  These are important characteristics to consider.
6.  She’s attractive
In your eyes, she should be a “10.”  When my wife walks in the room, I’m awestruck by her every time.  She’s beautiful from the inside out.  However, I’ve dated “hot” girls who ended up being downright ugly by the time we broke up.  Personality plays into attractiveness big-time.  Just remember, “charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting.”  She should be beautiful down to her soul because that kind of beauty lasts forever.
7.  She’s smart
You’re going to be spending a lot of time with her, so she should be able to hold a good conversation.  She should be wise, smart, and give you good advice.  Her women’s intuition should be strong.  I look to my wife all the time for advice.  She’s collected all sorts of wisdom from her mom.  She remembers everything.  Yes, everything….maybe too much.
8.  She loves you unconditionally
If she’s trying to change you to be another person, it’s time to move on.  Your future wife should love you just as you are, regardless of anything you’ve done in your past.  There will be minor adjustments along the way, but if she nags you about your core characteristics, it won’t get any better in marriage.
9.  She’s responsible
Does she remember appointments and meetings?  Does she flake all of the time?  She should already do a good job of managing her own life.  If she’s got loads of debt and doesn’t work, you’re going to be taking all of that on.  Ultimately, she will have some part in your financial well-being, and guess what?  Finances remain one of the leading causes of divorce.
10.  She gets along with your family and friends
If she doesn’t even try to connect with your family and/or friends, it’s probably time to move on.  She shouldn’t be critical of the people who have been loyal to you throughout your life.  There might be cases where your mom doesn’t like your future wife, and that may require your intervention.  But in general, she should be a good fit with the people in your life. Marriage is a joining of two lives that existed prior to meeting the other person.
When it comes down to it, you know what you can handle.  Love can overwrite many of the qualities above, but having these qualities will certainly make your lives easier once you are married.  No one’s perfect.  Even with this list, both of you are still going to bring some kind of baggage into the relationship.  Make sure premarital counseling is a huge priority once you find her.  My wife and I did a relationship bootcamp in addition to premarital counseling.  One session just doesn’t cut it.  Throw everything but the kitchen sink at the most important decision you will ever make.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Labuan FSA Day 2013

Posted by Lil' Sue at 11/06/2013 11:34:00 AM
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Our DG pretending to be chef hahhahaha

Kak Suzanah rawks!!!

The shareholders of Drinking Monsters Group

At 6.45am everybody is so ready to start the business.. Considering my just 'Awake' face...hahahha

Drinks for sale!!!

Drinking Monsters!!!

Last before our closing sale...

Ini kaaalilah...

Credits to Robin the photographer, Nizam and Baby for the missing in action act...

credits to Elaine for the nice collage pix of the day

Happenings in October....

Posted by Lil' Sue at 11/06/2013 11:28:00 AM
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In October, nothing much to share. One of my colleague resigned, team building at Beringgis Beach Resort and also the Labuan Industry Dinner, which I took part in singing competition.

Saturday, October 5, 2013

A day like this...

Posted by Lil' Sue at 10/05/2013 01:46:00 PM
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Nothing much changed. In fact, I am sitting at Kopitiam Old Town accompanied with my preggy n fabulous housemate a.k.a Naia ^^ Our house is getting a makeover today.. and we have no where to go coz she can't smell the paint odour. Browsing the internet and one magical website suddenly popped out looking for writer from Malaysia. I dont really know how this thing will work but I have sent some relevant inquires for me to go further. I always want to write one. 

I get a very HARD call from my mom last nite. I am getting nervous about a lot of issues and I know I have to do something about it. I know... really...


Looking back at yesterday's event, I keep on thinking why it is a big deal when it comes to find a man for me? Sometimes I am really SICK of people pestering or pushing me to make a move to anyone. I just dont feel right.

At this very point of time, I really dont think a miracle 'Guy' is the answer for everything. It would be nice to have someone by my side. BUT, he must be the right one. 

Stay positive and be grateful.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Michael Bublé - Haven't Met You Yet (Official Video)

Posted by Lil' Sue at 9/11/2013 06:26:00 PM
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Just a thought in Wednesday...

Posted by Lil' Sue at 9/11/2013 11:14:00 AM
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In my 31 years of is very evident that human can be a scary human being. Just today I was being harassed by a fake team mate. Saying all the bullshits about being a good team member. Trust  and all the bluff on "getting to know you BETTER". All I can say is, just be TRUE to yourself. The good things will reflect from yourself, no need to brag about coz it will naturally show. Sigh... scary my opinion a guy in the family should excel in his career and be better for the sake of his family. Please do not give any space for other WOMAN to steal your WIFE's place. The 80% occurrence that happened around me is between muslim family and Malay guy. In certain stage, they tend to forget what is their objective.

In another words, I respect MAN who honour, love, respect, adore and be faithful to ONE woman.

Monday, September 9, 2013

What a WEIRDO...

Posted by Lil' Sue at 9/09/2013 02:45:00 PM
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People say when it comes to HEART issue, it is quite complicated. It is just the matter whether you are in the right track or NOT. My first encounter with a WEIRDO today was a MARRIED guy who wished to know me better. What a lame excuse for a start, I am replying in a NICE words just because he is my friend's friend. In my opinion this guy is already trying his luck to approach another girl, by ignoring the fact that he is a MARRIED man. He is giving another space to know other woman. Sigh..... what a typical guy...!!!!  I think he might think he can just get any girl that he wants....What an IDIOT...!!!

Monday, September 2, 2013


Posted by Lil' Sue at 9/02/2013 04:55:00 PM
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OOOmy god..Today is such a beautiful day...
Pardon me for showing my anger and frustration on this beautiful day...
There is a guy in my office...
I feel somehow intimidated by his harsh words..
Sometimes I feel soooo irritated by his sudden remarks..
Cant he just be quiet and shut his damn BIG mouth~!!!
Mulut mcm perempuan!!!

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Beautiful advice from a divorced man after 16 years of marriage

Posted by Lil' Sue at 8/21/2013 09:09:00 AM
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My advice after a divorce following 16 years of marriage, by Gerald Rogers.

Obviously, I’m not a relationship expert. But there’s something about my divorce being finalized this week that gives me perspective of things I wish I would have done different… After losing a woman that I loved, and a marriage of almost 16 years, here’s the advice I wish I would have had

1. Never stop courting. Never stop dating. NEVER EVER take that woman for granted. When you asked her to marry you, you promised to be that man that would OWN HER HEART and to fiercely protect it. This is the most important and sacred treasure you will ever be entrusted with. SHE CHOSE YOU. Never forget that, and NEVER GET LAZY in your love.

2. Protect your own heart. Just as you committed to being the protector of her heart, you must guard your own with the same vigilance. Love yourself fully, love the world openly, but there is a special place in your heart where no one must enter except for your wife. Keep that space always ready to receive her and invite her in, and refuse to let anyone or anything else enter there.

3. Fall in love over and over again.  You will constantly change. You’re not the same people you were when you got married, and in five years you will not be the same person you are today. Change will come, and in that you have to re-choose each other everyday. SHE DOESN’T HAVE TO STAY WITH YOU, and if you don’t take care of her heart, she may give that heart to someone else or seal you out completely, and you may never be able to get it back. Always fight to win her love just as you did when you were courting her.

4. Always see the best in her. Focus only on what you love. What you focus on will expand. If you focus on what bugs you, all you will see is reasons to be bugged. If you focus on what you love, you can’t help but be consumed by love. Focus to the point where you can no longer see anything but love, and you know without a doubt that you are the luckiest man on earth to be have this woman as your wife.

5. It’s not your job to change or fix her… your job is to love her as she is with no expectation of her ever changing. And if she changes, love what she becomes, whether it’s what you wanted or not.

6. Take full accountability for your own emotions: It’s not your wife’s job to make you happy, and she CAN’T make you sad. You are responsible for finding your own happiness, and through that your joy will spill over into your relationship and your love.

7. Never blame your wife if you get frustrated or angry at her, it is only because it is triggering something inside of YOU. They are YOUR emotions, and your responsibility. When you feel those feelings take time to get present and to look within and understand what it is inside of YOU that is asking to be healed. You were attracted to this woman because she was the person best suited to trigger all of your childhood wounds in the most painful way so that you could heal them… when you heal yourself, you will no longer be triggered by her, and you will wonder why you ever were.

8. Allow your woman to just be. When she’s sad or upset, it’s not your job to fix it, it’s your job to HOLD HER and let her know it’s ok. Let her know that you hear her, and that she’s important and that you are that pillar on which she can always lean. The feminine spirit is about change and emotion and like a storm her emotions will roll in and out, and as you remain strong and unjudging she will trust you and open her soul to you… DON’T RUN-AWAY WHEN SHE’S UPSET. Stand present and strong and let her know you aren’t going anywhere. Listen to what she is really saying behind the words and emotion.

9. Be silly… don’t take yourself so damn seriously. Laugh. And make her laugh. Laughter makes everything else easier.

10. Fill her soul everyday… learn her love languages and the specific ways that she feels important and validated and CHERISHED. Ask her to create a list of 10 THINGS that make her feel loved and memorize those things and make it a priority everyday to make her feel like a queen.

11. Be present. Give her not only your time, but your focus, your attention and your soul. Do whatever it takes to clear your head so that when you are with her you are fully WITH HER. Treat her as you would your most valuable client. She is.

12. Be willing to take her sexually, to carry her away in the power of your masculine presence, to consume her and devour her with your strength, and to penetrate her to the deepest levels of her soul. Let her melt into her feminine softness as she knows she can trust you fully.

13. Don’t be an idiot…. And don’t be afraid of being one either. You will make mistakes and so will she. Try not to make too big of mistakes, and learn from the ones you do make. You’re not supposed to be perfect, just try to not be too stupid.

14. Give her space… The woman is so good at giving and giving, and sometimes she will need to be reminded to take time to nurture herself. Sometimes she will need to fly from your branches to go and find what feeds her soul, and if you give her that space she will come back with new songs to sing…. (okay, getting a little too poetic here, but you get the point. Tell her to take time for herself, ESPECIALLY after you have kids. She needs that space to renew and get re-centered, and to find herself after she gets lost in serving you, the kids and the world.)

15. Be vulnerable… you don’t have to have it all together. Be willing to share your fears and feelings, and quick to acknowledge your mistakes.

16. Be fully transparent. If you want to have trust you must be willing to share EVERYTHING… Especially those things you don’t want to share. It takes courage to fully love, to fully open your heart and let her in when you don’t know i she will like what she finds… Part of that courage is allowing her to love you completely, your darkness as well as your light. DROP THE MASK… If you feel like you need to wear a mask around her, and show up perfect all the time, you will never experience the full dimension of what love can be.

17. Never stop growing together… The stagnant pond breeds malaria, the flowing stream is always fresh and cool. Atrophy is the natural process when you stop working a muscle, just as it is if you stop working on your relationship. Find common goals, dreams and visions to work towards.

18. Don’t worry about money. Money is a game, find ways to work together as a team to win it. It never helps when teammates fight. Figure out ways to leverage both persons strength to win.

19. Forgive immediately and focus on the future rather than carrying weight from the past. Don’t let your history hold you hostage. Holding onto past mistakes that either you or she makes, is like a heavy anchor to your marriage and will hold you back. FORGIVENESS IS FREEDOM. Cut the anchor loose and always choose love.

20. Always choose love. ALWAYS CHOOSE LOVE. In the end, this is the only advice you need. If this is the guiding principle through which all your choices is governed, there is nothing that will threaten the happiness of your marriage. Love will always endure.

In the end marriage isn’t about happily ever after. It’s about work. And a commitment to grow together and a willingness to continually invest in creating something that can endure eternity. Through that work, the happiness will come. Marriage is life, and it will bring ups and downs. Embracing all of the cycles and learning to learn from and love each experience will bring the strength and perspective to keep building, one brick at a time.
These are lessons I learned the hard way. These are lessons I learned too late. But these are lessons I am learning and committed in carrying forward. Truth is, I loved being married, and in time, I will get married again, and when I do, I will build it with a foundation that will endure any storm and any amount of time.

If you are reading this and find wisdom in my pain, share it those those young husbands whose hearts are still full of hope, and with those couples you may know who may have forgotten how to love. One of those men may be like I was, and in these hard earned lessons perhaps something will awaken in him and he will learn to be the man his lady has been waiting for.

MEN- THIS IS YOUR CHARGE: Commit to being an EPIC LOVER. There is no greater challenge, and no greater prize. Your woman deserves that from. Be the type of husband your wife can’t help but brag about

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Ki TimbokTinggur Bulawan

Posted by Lil' Sue at 8/20/2013 03:15:00 PM
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Timpak oku lo’d tuod-tuod
Ko impa ku mitatabang
Intutunai ku e yaadi' ku
Ki timbok tinggur bulawan

Momorilik i’d tidong-tidong
Mitatabang kanou koinsanai
Insikitai ku ti norilik
Pamalangga dahai tasakan

Silau-silau lo tadau
Mongiduang di ti arai ku
Kada koruyou arai
Inggaa o’ maan ya sondihon

Surut-surut kou no arai
Surut no om intua kou noh
Oonsi-oonsi kou noh uaa
Oonsi kou ti ginawo ya...

PS: This song is very meaningful...made me yearn to come back home and my childhood moment....

Timpak - to stand on or to sit on a thing which could be a stone, a stump etc, normally to elevate/lift/position him/herself for wider view of the surrounding, or just to get higher (level) from the others ... oku - 'me', l'od - 'at' or 'there' ... or 'on' ..., tuod-tuod - 'stump' ... So, 'Timpak oku lo'd tuod-tuod' means 'I stand on a stump' ...

Ko impa - I look upon, ku - me, mitatabang - community mutual aid/ similar with 'gotong-royong' ... I look upon a community mutual aid, err ... *is this correct?

Intutunai - I recognize, adi - sister, 'adi' could also means brother, but in this case, it's sister .. I recognize my sister ...

Ki timbok tinggur bulawan - Ki - 'with', timbok tinggur bulawan - a thick, blunt needle or a long pin used to fasten women's hair which is shaped like a bun.

Momorilik i'd tidong-tidong ... momorilik - to clear/cut/chop small trees/shrubs/small plants by machete or other tools with hands ... i'd - at, tidong-tidong - hill slopes ...

Mitatabang kanou koinsanai - Let's us all do 'gotong royong' ...

Insikitai ku ti norilik - insikitai - make fire, ti - this, norilik - those chopped/cleared trees ... I make fire on this chopped trees ... not exactly but close in meaning ...

Pamalangga dahai tasakan - pamalangga - clear, dahai - us, tasakan - planting, especially hill paddy ... To clear the ground for paddy planting ...

Silau-silau lo tadau - silau - bright, lo - that, tadau - sun ... The sun was bright ...

Mogiduang ti arai ku - Honestly I don't really know whether I got the right word or I just don't know the translation of mogiduang ... ti - this, arai - short form of 'parai', which means paddy ...

Kada koruyou arai - kada - don't, kou - you all, riou - dry, die, arai - paddy ... Don't die paddy ...

Inggaa o' maan ya sondihon ... Inggaa - nada, nothing, none ... o' maan - have .. ya - short form of yahai - us, sondihon - lean on, live on, rely on ... We'll have nothing to live on ...

Surut-surut kou no arai - surut - grow well, fine, good ... kou - you all ... arai - paddy ... Grow well, paddy ...

Surut no om intua kou noh ... intua - fruiting ... Grow well and be fruitful ...

Oonsi-oonsi kou noh uaa ... Oonsi - fruitful, fertile ... uaa - fruits ...

Oonsikou ti ginawo ya ... We are thankful for this...

I took this translation from another blogger with little enhancement and modification to the meaning...
I thought that my Dusun was so BAD but I think it is quite ok...It is just I didnt get a chance to practice in my daily life...

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Eidul Fitr Reflection

Posted by Lil' Sue at 8/15/2013 11:41:00 PM
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My Raya celebration this year is getting duller. Deep down inside, i guess i know why this is happening. This strengthen the reason why i need to find job overseas. I am fully aware the importance of living within your means. But I think it is not wrong to desire for better living and lifestyle. Since I am not attached to anyone, this will make things easier. Being at home for several days made my head feels like exploding ..and the hunger  for permanent solution. 

I am flattered when my dear friend gives me this remark ' come on sue, you are too cute to be single'. It was funny though when she is trying to hook me up with her friend. I am not so excited bout this but I appreciate her effort. I guess she is on holidays for too long since she has time to think about me this much ^^!

Tomorrow I will be flying back to Labuan.. I have two days to set up my mind to the post- raya and be back to work.

Dear god, please help me to be better in my judgement. Insya Allah

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Eid Mubarak Greetings from Business Operations Unit of Labuan FSA

Posted by Lil' Sue at 7/31/2013 05:00:00 PM
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Thursday, July 25, 2013

Pissed Off!!!

Posted by Lil' Sue at 7/25/2013 01:03:00 AM
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How many times that I have to encounter these type of morons??? 
I think I should have not accepted any weird acquaintance from anyone especially someone that I never met in person. I know my friends are being NICE by trying to hook me up another human being especially from the opposite gender. However, I am looking for a genuine friendship for a start...not by getting on my nerve....craving for my attention!! Personally I am not really looking for a PERFECT guy to appear from no where BUT sorry to say, they cannot even start a decent conversation and I think they are being really WEIRD. I am wondering whether I am the one who is having a problem here????  Can you imagine?? This moron never met me in person but started to demand for a relationship. Is he NUTS or something???? Logically, it does not even make any sense...!! Who care if you are DAMN rich and has a lot money???? Go to helll!!!! I rather starve than be with these bunch of idiots. Period!

Monday, July 22, 2013


Posted by Lil' Sue at 7/22/2013 10:59:00 AM
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When I was in my early twenties, if a guy acted aloof, called back only sometimes and showed minimal interest, I would get hooked. You could say I was addicted to the bad boy/ unavailable boy/ player. I was drawn to what psychotherapist, Ken Page terms as “attractions of deprivation” – when we are drawn to people who embody the worst emotional characteristics of our parents. Basically, the theory explains that we are attracted to people who can wound us the same way we were wounded in our childhood, as our psyche tries to recreate the past void and save us by changing its ending.
“The child in us believes that if the original perpetrators — or their current replacements — finally change their minds, apologize, or make up for that terrible rupture of trust, we can escape from our prison of unworthiness. Our conscious self is drawn to the positive qualities we yearn for, but our unconscious draws us to the qualities which hurt us the most as children.”  - Psychology Today
So games used to work on me because 1) I had unresolved daddy issues and 2) At the tender age of 20, I was trying to figure out who I was and to top it off, I was ridden with insecurity and a low sense of self-worth.
But somewhere in between the passing of a decade, something changed.
I learned to love myself.  I became independent, confident, and started to value my self-worth. I went through hardships and heartbreaks and picked myself back up which built my strength and courage. Instead of relying on beauty as my source of empowerment, I focused on basing my empowerment on my intelligence, successes, values, contributions to the world and how I helped others. In a sense, I finally grew up. I went from being a girl to becoming a woman. And as a woman, you are attracted to very different things than you are as a girl.
A girl is attracted to boys. A woman is attracted to men. Now, this has nothing to do with the actual age of a person. I’m referring to maturity, life vision and stage of life. In fact, some people regardless of their age, will never really grow up.
If you are a girl (lack independence, are ruled by insecurity, lack self-respect, throw tantrums, have princess syndrome, don’t have strong values or boundaries and can’t hold yourself on your own) then expect that you will attract only boys. However, if you are a woman (independent, ambitious, knows your worth and value, has a strong moral compass, is considerate and an able communicator and doesn’t let insecurity dominate your psyche), then you should be dating a man. And if you can’t spot the difference just yet, here are some pointers.
  1. A man knows what he wants, and goes for it. A boy may have somewhat of an idea, but not really. He doesn’t think too much about it, and even if he does, doesn’t exert much effort to get it. A boy is passive, a man is assertive.
  2. A man plans for his future and is working towards building a foundation and infrastructure in order to have a family (at some point in his life).  A boy lives only in the moment and his plans are mostly around which bar he’s going to hit up on the weekend.
  3. A man looks for a woman with intelligence, who is supportive, grounded and encompasses a shared set of values when choosing a partner. A boy cares mostly only for girls who are hot, wild and exciting.
  4. A man knows a good woman when he meets one and will take initiative to get to know her. A boy may make an attempt if you’re lucky, but gives up before ever really trying.
  5. A man has the courage to have uncomfortable conversations. He is honest with his intentions and lets people know where they stand. A boy avoids. He ignores confrontation or any serious talks about feelings. Instead of dealing with a situation, he runs away from it or creates drama or excuses to mask the fact he’s not that into you or a relationship.
  6. A man knows when to invest in a woman and jump in with two feet. A boy is always “testing” – he doesn’t fully commit because he never knows if he is quite ready. But the truth is, because he is a boy, regardless of who he meets, he will never be ready due to the stage of life he is in.
  7. A man knows how to have a good time and be social, but is often busy making strides in his career and building his life. A boy is getting crunk with his buddies at the bar every weekend.
  8. A man takes the time to reflect on the type of man he wants to be, the example he wants to leave and the vision for his life. He has put thought into his values. A boy has not established his moral compass or values and consequently, is often inconsistent.
  9. A man has integrity. He means what he says, and says what he means. He has follow through and actions his promises. And if he can’t he has the guts to tell you why. A boy makes promises but doesn’t follow through.
  10. A man is afraid of rejection but will put himself out there anyway. A boy is afraid of rejection and acts passive so that his pride and ego won’t ever get too banged up.
Now, a lot of these differences require taking the time to know someone to figure out if the apple of your eye is indeed a man, or a mere boy. However, one of the quickest filters that you can notice from the beginning is this:
11. A boy plays games. A man doesn’t.
This is an interesting fact ^^!

Friday, July 19, 2013

Luahan seorang isteri...

Posted by Lil' Sue at 7/19/2013 03:30:00 PM
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Tak usah bicara tentang payung emas
Aku belum layak iktiraf diri sesuci khadijah atau fatimah
Tak usah bicara tentang zuriat
Aku bukan Allah…mudah menyebut kun fa ya kun…
Tak usah bicara tentang setia
Aku pasti kau tahu aku bukan perempuan jalanan
Tak usah bicara tentang tanggungjawab
Aku tahu kau lebih arif tentang itu
Tak usah bicara tentang kesempurnaan
Aku terima kekurangan kau kerana Allah
Tak usah bicara tentang dia
Aku diasingkan darimu kerana dia
Sucinya aku, kau miliki ketika di Makkah
Hebatnya dia, kau sembunyikan ketika di Thailand..
Berhenti beralasan ini semua jodoh ketentuan Allah…
Kerana satu dunia tahu
Hanya itu lah jawapan mudah utk lepaskan kekhilafan yg disengajakan…
PS: This  poem was quoted from Dayana. A wife, cheated by her husband just to marry someone else.
I think I could understand her UTMOST feelings right now... alasan-alasan seperti jodoh dan ketentuan ALLAH di atas kekhilafan yang disengajakan...

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Sorry - Dusun Version By Jo Anna Sue Henley Rampas

Posted by Lil' Sue at 7/10/2013 01:00:00 PM
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Siou..literally means "Sorry" 
This is in my native language 'Dusun"
Singer: Jo-Anna Sue Henley Rampas..

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Physical Assessment Competency in MITI

Posted by Lil' Sue at 6/26/2013 04:43:00 PM
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(^_^)!!!! Waaaaa....I cant believe that the result will be this fast...  I am really thankful to the Almighty for giving me this chance to try something new....

No word can describe how thankful I am... Alhamdulillah....

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Just a thought....

Posted by Lil' Sue at 6/19/2013 01:23:00 PM
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I have not gone for any interview for the past 3 years... No wonder I felt butterfly in my stomach just at the thought of sitting for an entrance exam...lols!! God is gracious and most merciful... thinking about it, I had similar opportunity back in 2005. But I chose IBM over the agency under MITI. Actually I always picture myself working with the cross culture/ intercultural environment. For years, I developed crush on 'Tourism Industry' where I found my love for history, languages and culture. Being an International Trade student has given me an advantage to undertstand about the differences and barriers to trade and everything related to international transactions. It boosts up my confidence level since I am currently attached with offshore regulator, which I am pretty sure related to the assessment that I am going to sit on this weekend.

Fingers crossed...If I happen to go through this assessment, then I have to attend the physical test on the following week. I hope everything goes well. With the extra effort.. and the prayers to the ALMIGHTY... 

I will definitely get it! (Super positive mode ^^)~~~ visualize your dream

Tuesday, June 11, 2013


Posted by Lil' Sue at 6/11/2013 02:25:00 PM
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Finally I was shortlisted for the assessment for MIDA (Malaysia Investment and Development Authority. If I am successful with the two stages, I am back to my LINE, which is about International Trade (^_^) . 

Another authority, different business approach but still,  reaching towards the goal of making Malaysia a HIGH income nation.

The Malaysian Investment Development Authority (MIDA) is the government's principal agency for the promotion of the manufacturing and services sectors in Malaysia.
Incorporated as a statutory body under the Malaysian Industrial Development Authority (MIDA) Act, the establishment of MIDA in 1967 was hailed by the World Bank as "the necessary impetus for purposeful, positive and coordinated promotional action" for Malaysia's industrial development. Today, MIDA's is Malaysia's cutting-edge, dynamic and pioneering force in opening pathways to new frontiers around the globe.

MIDA assists companies which intend to invest in the manufacturing and services sectors, as well as facilitates the implementation of their projects. The wide range of services provided by MIDA include providing information on the opportunities for investments, as well as facilitating companies which are looking for joint venture partners.

To further enhance MIDA's role in assisting investors, senior representatives from key government agencies are stationed at MIDA's headquarters in Kuala Lumpur to advise investors on government policies and procedures. These representatives include officials from the Department of Labour, Immigration Department, Royal Malaysian Customs, Department of Environment, Tenaga Nasional Berhad and Telekom Malaysia Berhad.

All the best Lil' Sue!!!

Friday, June 7, 2013

Why you should visit South Korea?-Reporting live from Busan

Posted by Lil' Sue at 6/07/2013 05:58:00 PM
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This is funny but I should keep this as of my memory... ^^
I was stuttering and I know some words were quite WEIRD but anyway..
I am just doing this for fun...hahahha

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Can't Help Falling in Love (Elvis) - ThePianoGuys

Posted by Lil' Sue at 6/05/2013 05:22:00 PM
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I'm loving this....

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Happy Birthday Lil' Sue!!!!

Posted by Lil' Sue at 5/29/2013 02:27:00 AM
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Sunday, May 26, 2013

My Korean Adventure Day 1

Posted by Lil' Sue at 5/26/2013 07:28:00 PM
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Anyong Haseyo...
I think it's about time for me to do some recaps for my Korean adventure 2013 ^^!
The spring breeze brought a  delightful feelings for the four travellers with different agendas. As for myself, I have covered some places in Seoul before. Thus, I am not really having a butterfly in my stomach for this time around.

Ira, Intan & Nurul (The siblings)
The original idea for this trip was ALL about experiencing culture and the peoples. Nurul and Intan were focusing on the idea of their Hallyu Stars (^_^), eyeing for the right time on the music showcase and also SHOPPING. It paid off by being at the front liner in the 2PM Mnet comeback stage for their new album in Gangnam subway station. I am a fan of 2PM but I am not so into them...hahhahaa...Literally means that I am their half-fan...

Ok... since we were residing at May GuestHouse, which is located around HapJeong area, the bus number 6002 is the fastest and most convenient mode of transportation. It costs around 10,000 won-one way ticket. On the first day, we decided to to explore the Itaewon and Namsan Tower. Again, I have visited these two places before. Not so much thing to say. Cable car. The love-locks. This time I wrote a message on the tiles and paste it on the wall. I heard it will be there for two years and they will throw it away or you can get it back if you want.
Somewhere around Itaewon

Nurul: Ahjumma!!! lols...
The Three Stooges hehehe exploring Itaewon
We spent half a day at Namsan Tower...There were some cultural performance and martial arts demonstration.

Strawberry time...

Haechi ...Anyong!!! ^^


Wednesday, April 17, 2013


Posted by Lil' Sue at 4/17/2013 12:52:00 PM
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Life Lesson We Learn Too Late

Posted by Lil' Sue at 4/17/2013 10:46:00 AM
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Before you know it you’ll be asking, “How did it get so late so
soon?” So take time to figure yourself out. Take time to realize what
you want and need. Take time to take risks. Take time to love,
laugh, cry, learn, and forgive. Life is shorter than it often seems.
Here are some things you need to know, before it’s too late:

1. This moment is your life – Your life is not between the moments
of your birth and death. Your life is between now and your next
breath. The present – the here and now – is all the life you ever
get. So live each moment in full, in kindness and peace, without
fear and regret. And do the best you can with what you have in
this moment; because that is all you can ever expect of anyone,
including yourself.

2. The sacrifices you make today will pay dividends in the
future – When it comes to working hard to achieve a dream –
earning a degree, building a business, or any other personal
achievement that takes time and commitment – one thing you
have to ask yourself is: “Am I willing to live a few years of my
life like many people won’t, so I can spend the rest of my life like
many people can’t?”

3. When you procrastinate, you become a slave to yesterday
But when you are proactive, it’s as if yesterday is a kind friend
that helps take a load off your back. So do something right now
that your future self will thank you for. Trust me, tomorrow you’ll
be happy you started today.

4. You are your most important relationship – Happiness is
when you feel good about yourself without feeling the need for
anyone else’s approval. You must first have a healthy relationship
with yourself before you can have a healthy relationship with
others. You have to feel worthwhile and acceptable in your own
eyes, so that you’ll be able to look confidently into the eyes of the
people around you and connect with them.

5. Small acts of kindness can make the world a better place
Smile at people who look like they are having a rough day. Be
kind to them. Kindness is the only investment that never
fails. And wherever there is a human being, there’s an
opportunity for kindness. Learn to give, even if it’s just a smile,
not because you have too much, but because you understand
there are so many others who feel like they have nothing at all.

6. Behind every beautiful life, there has been some kind of
pain – You fall, you rise, you make mistakes, you live, you
learn. You’re human, not perfect. You’ve been hurt, but you’re
alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive – to breathe, to think,
to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey,
 but there is also lots of beauty. We must keep putting one foot in front of the other 
even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend.

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